Decisions, moods, blog envy…

23 Mar

It is 28 weeks till the Auckland marathon. I have decided to do it. It will be my first marathon, so I have a lot of training to do. I’m chewing on the idea of either, employing a personal trainer, or, working it out myself with a Lydiard programme. God knows, I have enough books about the subject!. One week after the marathon is the Taupo cycle challenge, which I plan to do also. Biking is good cross training for running with the right balance.

I read a training blog by a woman in Wellington who was out doing some sort of training – big stuff, ya know, BIG runs, BIG bikes etc, it nearly made me weep. Every day she is doing something.Reading it made me feel like I was in training playtime. I started making excuse’s for myself, like, ‘I’ve got kids’, ‘Deane’s not home a lot’, ‘I’m older’. Of course my reason’s for being in ‘training playtime’ meandered on in a sad-ass soliloquy. After a hand-wringing, teeth-gnashing while, I concluded that I have been using my family situation as an excuse for my half arsed training. It’ s easy to use them, because, a lot more of my time is delegated to them, and my darling friends are always telling me how amazing I must be…to go out for a run…I mean! I am labelled superwoman because I go out for a run and have a few kids. Do you get what I’m saying? If a person happens to be a mother – is it simply amazingif she goes for a run, bike or whatever? Anyhoo..I have realised that I have allowed the praise of other people affect me, that is, I let myself think its okay if I don’t go as hard as I should or put in as many hours as I should (to reach my goals) because, hey! I’m pretty good anyway. Superwoman. It is an easy out, si?!

Therefore,I have decided to push myself more, thus the Auckland marathon training, the Taupo cycle challenge. So, thankyou http://pipsqueaks.blogspot.com .

This is what I have been doing, training wise, while I was mulling over the above: Monday morning, after dropping the wee girls at kindergarten, I mulled my way through  a good weights/strength session at the gym. I did a small 35 minute run at about 9.30 that night. Tuesday evening I did a 45 minute road run. Wednesday morning I ‘flowed’ through a balance class, and chased it down with a 30 minute run. Thursday I did not even go to the gym for my weights session…excuse: after I had dropped the morsels at kindergarten, I sat in the car feeling so glum, indecisive and oh!, lets not forget pathetic,I drove directly home. I  ignored the dishes and the piles of washing on the couch, and did a chakra healing meditation. (I have the chakra healing soundtrack on my ipod). Once my chakra’s were ‘healed’, I did some drawings on a canvas in preparation for a painting. That was how I used my free time that day. hmmm…

On friday I was much the same, so no training was even half arsed done….although my chakra’s felt more in tune. On Saturday, I went for a 6am 10k run. I felt fabulous. That’s my week dear readers. I am not superwoman. I am below par..but this is going to change.

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2 Responses to “Decisions, moods, blog envy…”

  1. Pip May 20, 2009 at 9:38 pm #

    Um … hang on …. that’s ME! Blush ….

    • catherinedrew May 21, 2009 at 5:47 am #

      yep, tis you..I am pretty impressed!..might see you out there one day…

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